thekidfrombrooklyn: (bucky - post-rescue)
2012-10-27 08:37 am

OOM: Didn't leave nobody but the baby

Steve often gets Bucky to have a meal together, or work out in the gym, or even just to have a drink together and shoot the breeze. So he thinks nothing of it when he goes to wake Bucky this morning, thinks nothing will be out of the ordinary as he taps on the door in a playful rhythm. "Bucky! Wake up! Let's get some breakfast, I'm starving."

Usually it only takes Bucky a minute or two to yell back--something like, "Hold your horses, I'm not decent!"--or sometimes he yanks the door open and tackles Steve in the hall. Just to teach him a lesson, you understand.

This morning...nothing. Not even a grumpy, "Come back later!"

Steve taps on the door again, louder. "Bucky?" He waits a moment more. "Barnes, I will get the music man and make him play Reveille until you get out of bed, and nobody wants that."

Still nothing.

Suddenly it's not funny anymore. "Bucky," Steve says quietly and tries the knob.

Locked. Okay. Bucky's been having so much trouble sleeping lately, he must be deep under. Steve thinks, I could leave him be and get him for lunch, but he doesn't. Not yet. Just a quick peek, to check on him.

Bucky gave him a key, "for whatever you might need it for," so Steve unlocks the door, swallows hard and pushes it open, with one more, "Bucky?" though this time he doesn't expect an answer. Only hopes for one.

The room looks perfectly normal. Perfectly fine. Neatly made bed. Spotless desk. Armchair in the corner.

And Bucky's rifle hanging from the bed post.

Steve's breath catches in his chest. Bucky is a soldier during wartime, even at Milliways, and soldiers on active duty go nowhere without their weapon, not even to the mess hall.

If there's ever a sign that something is wrong, this is it.

For a moment, perhaps two, Steve can't do a thing. Bucky. Even with all the weirdness going on, Steve hand't thought it would really effect either of them, not as badly as some. After all, he's been fine since Orpheus has been here, and he thought maybe the haunting was easing up a little...

Clearly he was wrong.

Steve touches the rifle lightly with one finger, breathing deeply to calm the pounding in his ears. He whispers, to make himself feel better if nothing else, "I'm coming to get you, buddy."

He leaves, closing and locking the door behind him. While it's tempting to crawl back into bed and let Orpheus comfort him, he has to find Jack Green.

Despite his resolve to stay strong, he can't keep the bleakness out of his voice when he tells Jack, "That thing has Bucky. He's gone."
thekidfrombrooklyn: (t-shirt - waking up)
2012-10-13 01:32 pm

OOM: post-mission, 3:33 a.m.

Nighttime, bedtime. The Commandos are settling in for the night--some reading, some talking, a bit of quiet laughter, as lights go out one by one--and Steve is drawing in bed, captured by the memory of trees in fog and snow. (It would look better on dark paper with a white pencil or even silverpoint, but he'll make do with what he has.) "Do any of you mind if I leave the light on a little longer?" he asks and smiles at the chorus of sleepy "No"s he gets in return.

He's tired, too, even so, and soon his eyelids are drooping and his pencil isn't obeying as readily as usual. Sleep, he decides, and closes his journal around his pencil before turning out the light. He keeps the journal on the cot with him, though, in case he wakes up with another idea. (It happens sometimes.)

Steve's dreams after missions are rarely pleasant, so he tries, tonight, to think about good things in the hope they'll give him good dreams. Eating hot dogs on the Fourth of July. Peggy's smile. Going to the pictures with Bucky and sitting in the balcony where they could watch the rest of the audience. Swimming with Orpheus in the lake at Milliways. Running in the woods...

... )
"Steve? Steve. Let me take the pencil, Steve."

Steve blinks a few times, realizing several things all at once--that he is breathing hard, almost like wheezing; that he has been drawing fast and hard enough to tear through the paper; and that the drawing is of the strange symbol, the circle with an X through it, along with trees and a man with too many arms and no face.

The Commandos are gathered around and Falsworth is kneeling in front of him, his hand wrapped around the pencil. "Steve," he says again, gently, and removes the pencil from Steve's fingers. "It was just a bad dream. Just a dream."

Steve presses his hands to his eyes. "I need to go for a walk," he tells them and walks out of the barracks, despite the winter weather and his bare feet, hoping the cold will finish waking him.
thekidfrombrooklyn: (captain - grim)
2012-10-10 05:51 pm
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OOM: outside

In the morning, Steve wakes feeling pretty good. He kisses Orpheus and puts on a tracksuit and sneakers, determined to go for a run, fog or no fog.

The mist hasn't let up but he forges ahead at a steady pace, the hood of his tracksuit up, hearing no sound but his own footsteps and breathing and the faint lapping of water against the lake shore.

And then there's a faint rustle in the trees. Movement that Steve sees out of the corner of his eye, but when he looks at it directly, it's just more trees and fog.

He slows, stops and lowers the hood. He's not breathing hard but his lungs suddenly feel tight and cold, as if he's been gasping for breath for hours.

"Who's there?" he whispers and then coughs past the restriction in his throat. He says more firmly, "Who's there?"

No one's there.
See you.
Right?

"Nobody here but us," Steve murmurs and resumes running, a little faster than before.
thekidfrombrooklyn: (bucky - mid-mission)
2012-10-08 08:44 pm

OOM: near the Baltic Sea, 1944

The good news is, there are no snow drifts here and the snow is thin on the ground enough that Captain America and the Howling Commandos barely leave footprints.

The bad news is, while it's still snowy, the air is warming as winter creeps to its end. Warm air and cold air colliding means mist; mist means low visibility; low visibility means extra caution and slowing their advancement to the next HYDRA factory.

Steve leads the way, every footstep careful, as he represses the urge to shiver. He's not going to lose his cool because of a little fog.

He hopes.